Never Really There...

Never Really There
by Shaela N. Calderon


All those feelings I had
seem to have been in vain,
because once again my heart is broken
and I'm left alone to withstand the pain.

This time I was hoping for something different
thinking the sun would finally rise
and that someday he'd be right beside me...
to bring new hope into my eyes.

For awhile that's what I thought I had
and my heart seemed finally free
it was thanks to him -the only one-
who had ever brought such joy to me.

Though the feelings inside were overwhelming me
there was nothing I could do
to make him accept the love I had to give
and maybe even give some back, too.

So, tell me how- is there a way
to mend this broken heart?
Is there a way to ease this pain
and make a new start?

I guess, deep down, I always knew
that he would never really care.
Of course it wasn't meant to be-
since for him it was never really there.